"Hm." This is a question Tarantulas has a great deal of practical experience with, and he gives the question the careful thought it deserves. "I think that spite is a fine motivator when it gives you the extra push you need to take definitive action, but it makes a poor sustenance for daily life. And then too, trying too hard to remember events that you cannot may cause your mind to create fictitious memories, further obscuring the truth."

He pats Theodor's arm. "I think that, at least for now, it would be better for you to focus on healing and living as comfortably as possible. If these mushrooms hold your other pieces, then of course you should try to collect them, but don't fuss too much over whether your old memories will return. Get a job and try to build new relationships, in order to anchor yourself in the present day."