"No fucking kidding. Still feels like tearing my own heart out and handing it over like. Here. For some reason I trust you not to just. Crush it in your fist the second I look away!"

Ugh. She leans back on her elbows and blows hair out of her face. Thinking she'd lost Erin hurt horribly, even amidst all the other pain there at the end on the ship. Sometimes it's still hard to believe she let herself care so much when it can hurt so much.

"Even now I'm not trying to be. Human. Everything's still so messy."