"I'm about to say some words. You let me know if I'm in the ballpark. You're not aligned with your own body right now. Like, if there was a coloring book that was you, there'd be white spaces inside the outline and color outside the lines, because you're not where you ought to be. Like, if your body was a glove, you wouldn't be a hand, you'd be some figure made of sticks trying to move it around like a normal body. And you're mostly managing enough that people won't notice or comment, which is both an awful and an okay thing. Awful because there's clearly something not right and are they even paying attention? But okay, because if they knew, they'd all want to find a way to fix you, like it's something that's so easy to make go away. But it's not, and it's getting to you something horrible and you don't know what to do but keep moving. So you're here, now, doing farmwork, because it's physical and almost makes you feel like you've got it a little, but now you stopped and you're not in your body and you feel like shit again."
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"I'm about to say some words. You let me know if I'm in the ballpark. You're not aligned with your own body right now. Like, if there was a coloring book that was you, there'd be white spaces inside the outline and color outside the lines, because you're not where you ought to be. Like, if your body was a glove, you wouldn't be a hand, you'd be some figure made of sticks trying to move it around like a normal body. And you're mostly managing enough that people won't notice or comment, which is both an awful and an okay thing. Awful because there's clearly something not right and are they even paying attention? But okay, because if they knew, they'd all want to find a way to fix you, like it's something that's so easy to make go away. But it's not, and it's getting to you something horrible and you don't know what to do but keep moving. So you're here, now, doing farmwork, because it's physical and almost makes you feel like you've got it a little, but now you stopped and you're not in your body and you feel like shit again."