César breaks eye contact after entirely too long, in which he starts to look scared (of something else, not her). He gently thunks his head back against the wall with a small groan. Suddenly, the ceiling is interesting.

"The worst and best part about being in a community again is being perceived. I can't hide how I'm feeling anymore because people care." That's stalling, but it's also relevant background information, perhaps. "I never could get the amount of control I've wanted over my initial reactions."