"Oh. Uh..." he gives a breathy half-laugh. "That wasn't the first time I ever killed someone. And I've had to do it since, too. It's... not something I'll ever be proud of. I think the situation on the ship made that one feel, I don't know. Different." Because it wasn't in self-defense.

"It was so stupid, actually. We were visiting this world that was like a renaissance fair in perpetuity and we had a tournament. I didn't think I was going to win it. It was a free-for-all and I can fight but not better than everyone else. Every time I faced off with someone they turned away like they couldn't bring themselves to go up against me. So I... kind of won by default when it was down to just me and one other guy. I got a lucky shot in. Didn't feel like I deserved it."